Thursday, April 25, 2013

As I Shift the Lane...


As I change lanes in the journey of life; as I take the plunge into what I aspired for ages together, there is little tug in the heart, there is a little apprehension in the corner of my mind and a tinge of sadness.

Last year has been a tough one. I have felt uncontrollable rage, anger which I never knew I am capable of, done a lot of thinking & re-thinking,  felt unmanageable sadness, depression with sudden loss of best friend of 20 years whom I am not able to let go... At the same time, I have had beautiful times with my hero, babies, mom, in-laws and some friends. If not them, it would have been impossible to sail through the period.


Traditionally Sankranti to Apr-May period as been gear shifting time for me every year - mostly good. Some, really sad. An unbelievable entrance into my Alma mater, accompanied by a assistantship,  entrance into a great corporation (which made me what I am today), some of wonderful friends, meet my hero & fell in love with, held my wonderful babies for the first time, saw the last of my father, joined the current org, leaving the same & now I am plunging into something I am supremely passionate about.

This is officially to record & remind myself for the days of doubt. This is my to-do's for every single day of my life for next one year (at least!). From time to time, I shall come back to this post & will tick the list.

I take this plunge, to let go my safety net & feel the wind beneath my wings. I am doing this to pursue something I am supremely passionate about & fail, rather than not trying at all.

I am attempting this to have a healthy, happy home, be a healthy happy being

I am taking this lane to love, laugh, dance, sing, bake, cook, smile, let go, connect, garden, teach, learn, blog more.

By the next change over period, if I can do all this & contribute my bit to running our home, I would be a very grateful soul.

Wish me luck...


Photo: Vidhan Sabha Road, Jaipur by Pradosh Nair

14 comments:

Simran said...

Hey!! All the best for whatever you are planning to do... am sure it must be a whole lot of fun :) Would love to know the details whenever possible!!

Nayana Donga said...

Loads of good wishes...follow your hear and ..keep us a part of your beautiful journey :)

padmamanasa said...

Thanks Sims, will call u sometime.

padmamanasa said...

Thank you very much Nayana for your wishes, you sure are a part of my beautiful journey. Thanks for being here!

Reema Saravanan said...

Caongratulations on the big decision and All the best...

Nivedita Das Narayan said...

All the best for the path ahead - takes so much clarity and clairvoyance to change track. All my good wishes

padmamanasa said...

Thank you Reema

padmamanasa said...

Thanks Nivedita...

Vasudha S said...

All the best, hope you are successfull in the path you have chosen

padmamanasa said...

Thanks Vasudha!

skullz said...

As always you are an inspiration .. hope someday I will also follow my heart. You have taken a step towards a more meaningful like; wish you all the best . A nice, soulful.write - up to start !!! Awesomeness!!

skullz said...

As always you are an inspiration .. hope someday I will also follow my heart. You have taken a step towards a more meaningful like; wish you all the best . A nice, soulful.write - up to start !!! Awesomeness!!

padmamanasa said...

Thank you Skullz, for your heart felt wishes...

leena patel said...

Wish you a very happy journey ahead.

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